"Still deciding me" and "Kind of a mess"
At age 22, Steve and I broke up and I was left reeling in the following days. January 18, 2015: "I tried not to think today about how I could have saved our relationship. Things like not bringing up how much marriage scares me or my feelings about gay marriage [namely I supported it and Steve did not] or my plans to go to grad school. But I think to not have talked about those things would have been to hide/sacrifice a part of myself. So I think I did a good job being me--even if I'm still deciding me--and I don't think I should regret that. " I'm sad I felt the need to hide myself to accepted in that relationship. I'm proud of myself for recognizing my own malleability--that I was a person in the making instead of a finished product--while also knowing what was already important to me. Some of the following days were good, some were hard. January 25, 2015 : "I'm kind of a mess right now. Like I don't know how to spend my time in order to get clo...